Trying to understand....

Tyler and I went through with the frozen embryo transfer on the 19th of May. We had 4 embryos that survived the thawing process, and since they were not the best quality we and the Dr. decided to implant all 4. We waited for the 14 days that is required to find out if we were pregnant. With all the feelings of like this was our time and all the hopes and prayers we went in on the 2nd of June with scared feelings and feelings of deja vu to have the test run. Tyler and I stayed home from work that day so that we could be together for when the results came in. We went back and forth all day between yes we are pregnant and no we are not. At about 4 in the afternoon the call came in. I answered the phone and as we listened together, once again our hearts were broken. The result was negative again.
At this point I don't really understand, but I know that Heavenly Father has a plan for us. I don't know what it is, but I know there is something. With our hearts still tender and still a bit broken we are trying to pull ourselves together and stand up. We will survive this. Even though right now I'm not sure how. I know we can do this.
We don't know what are plans for the future are right now, but we will make a plan. Right now we are just focusing on us, and healing our hearts one more time.
I just want to tell all of our family and friends, Thank you! Thank you for the prayers, thank you for the Love and Support, thank you for being a shoulder to cry on. I want to tell my Husband Tyler thank you for being the Best Man in the whole world. I don't know what I would do without him!
I will try to keep you posted on our future plans. Please continue to keep us in your prayers, if that's not to much to ask. We appreciate you all so much.

Back on Schedule...for now....

Hopefully everythings a go. We went in to see Dr. Blauer (the infertility Dr.) last Friday, and so far we are on the schedule for May. I am really ready for this to work this time, and so far I am feeling very confident.

The surgery went really well. They removed between 10 and 12 polyps from my uterus, and then performed a D&C. So hopefully everything is all cleaned up, and now there is room in there for a baby or babies.

Thanks to you all for all the sweet comments and well wishes. We appreciate all the prayers. Hopefully I will have some good news to post soon.

Postponed yet AGAIN!

So once again we have to wait to do the frozen invitro cycle...

So I went into the Dr. at the beginning of February to get everything all set up to do invitro in March. We went in and he wanted to do a saline sonogram to make sure that the uterus looked good and we could proceed. Well the first time we went in we didn't even get to the part with the saline. He took one look at my uterus and said, wow your lining is way to thick we need to induce a period and get that lining down. So after 10 days of prometrium, finally a period started, and let me just tell ya "Ouchie!!!" it was no no good. So after that awful one, and after a month worth of sickness between Tyler and I, I finally made an appt. to have the saline sonogram again.

So I schedule it and for the one time only, Tyler could not come. He had a meeting that he had to be to, so I went by myself. I thought I will be fine, I can do this, everything is going to be just fine, in and out....well not so much....

We get all set up, and he starts looking around and says, huh well your lining is still really thick, hmmm, well let's proceed with the saline sonogram just to make sure nothing is wrong. So we go forward with that, and "voila!" what do you know, it's not fine. So he starts looking and now there are multiple polyps in my uterus. Well Great! Now I have to have another surgery!!

So here I am just received this crappy news and all by myself. At first I am trying really hard just to brave and strong and just going to not let this bother me, and then all of the sudden it all hits me. Everything is going to have to be put on hold, and another surgery and then I start to cry. Thankfully Dr. Blauer is an awesome sweet man, and was able to comfort me and get me calmed down.

So now I am thinking ok what's next. Well here's what's next...March 10th I am having surgery to remove the polyps and then a D&C to get the lining all nice and clean. Then I will heal for a month or two and then hopefully we will do the frozen invitro cycle in May.

So here is my new mindset. This is good. Maybe this has been the problem. Maybe I had these last time and that's why we didn't get pregnant. Now I will have a nice smooth place for the embryos to grab hold and make a nice little home for them for 9 months. So yep this is a good thing! I am glad they found them and I am glad we are getting it fixed. Anything I can do to get these babies here!! So I will keep everyone posted over the next few months. Hopefully this is the beginning of a very very good thing!!

I am such a Slacker..so here is an update!

We had a really fun Christmas. We went to New Mexico to spend it with my family and had a really good time. It was a really different Christmas, but it was fun.

Then we came back home and had a New Years Eve Party with Tyler's family and had a blast! We played Rock Band all night, and just had a really great time!!

Then we went to Cancun on the 17th of January and stayed for a week. It was so much fun! The weather wasn't perfect, but the worst day in Cancun, is better than a day at home in the middle of Winter!!!

Now we are preparing for a frozen in-vitro cycle in March. So I will be posting more about that as we go through the different things. So please pray for us. We are really hoping that it works this time.

Now here are some pictures of all the fun things that we have been doing.