Well we are putting off the invitro for another couple of months. I am not sure how I feel about this. I am having mixed emotions. On the one hand I think it might me a good thing to not do it in December during all the holidays and all that fun stuff. I am just not sure if it didn't work again I think I would have a really hard time with it and not want to participate in all of the fun stuff. I had to do that last year and that was no fun! Plus we are going to Cancun in January and I would be really worried if I did get pregnant that I wouldn't do anything while in Cancun. I would want to walk around with a protective bubble around me with a sign that says please stay 15 feet away I need space!!! And for sure Tyler wouldn't let me do anything he would make me stay in the hotel and just look out the window at the ocean. And I definatley don't want to do that.
But on the other hand it is putting it off AGAIN!! We are coming up on the year mark of the last time we did it, and I didn't think that it would take us this long to try again. However my heart is healing and I don't cry everytime I talk about it and that is a really good thing. So I think I am ready to try again. So being ready to try again it is hard to keep putting it off. But I know that when we do try again it will be the right time!
So depending on Dr. Blauers schedule for next year it's looking like February or March. So I hope that we don't push it back again. So for now it will continue to be just the two of us and our little 4 legged babies.
