Tyler&Brooke The Story of Us.

2010-08-04T18:02:00.000-07:00

After years of trying different medical procedures we have decided to pursue the adoption option, and we could not be more excited!!

To any expectant Mother's who are considering adoption, let me tell you a little bit about Tyler and I.

We have been married for almost 10 years. Which have been the Happiest 10 years of our lives! Tyler and I met at the Pharmacy that I still work at as a Pharmacy Technician. After receiving his Master's degree from BYU Tyler went on to work for The Utah Divison of Wildlife resources as a Habitat Biologist with whom he is still currently employed.

Tyler and I knew from the beginning that we wanted to have a family. After about a year or so of marriage we began trying to get pregnant. As I have had endometriosis for most of my life we expected there to be some difficulties. We just had no idea how many. After several surgeries and lots of medications we decided to try in-vitro. We were so hopeful. After two unsuccessful cycles and broken hearts we decided that maybe this was not the way to go.

My Amazing Big Sister also has had problems and she opted for not so many medical procedures and had decided that Adoption was the way for her and her Husband. They now have two Beautiful girls that they have adopted and because of this great example of love we two have decided this is the right thing for us!

We want everyone, expectant mother's looking to place a child for adoption or family, and friends to know, that Tyler and I will Love any child that is placed with us with all of our hearts! We will never be able to Thank the Birth Mother and Father for this amazing gift. What an amazing selfless gift!

The child will be raised in a stable loving home with lots of extended family nearby. With 10 and soon to be 11 cousins all living within 45 minutes of us. My family lives in New Mexico and Colorado and we see them very often. On that side of the family we have 2 little girl cousins. Both families are Latter Day Saints and the child will be raised as a Latter Day Saint. Tyler and I have 4 animals that live with us and we love them like they are our children. We are a very active family and love going on Vacations and love getting together with all of our extended family as well as some very close friends and there amazing children.

We want to thank all of you for reading this and helping us to start our family. If you have any questions for us please fill free to email me at brooke_brady@hotmail.com

Trying to understand....

2009-06-10T19:32:00.000-07:00

Tyler and I went through with the frozen embryo transfer on the 19th of May. We had 4 embryos that survived the thawing process, and since they were not the best quality we and the Dr. decided to implant all 4. We waited for the 14 days that is required to find out if we were pregnant. With all the feelings of like this was our time and all the hopes and prayers we went in on the 2nd of June with scared feelings and feelings of deja vu to have the test run. Tyler and I stayed home from work that day so that we could be together for when the results came in. We went back and forth all day between yes we are pregnant and no we are not. At about 4 in the afternoon the call came in. I answered the phone and as we listened together, once again our hearts were broken. The result was negative again.
At this point I don't really understand, but I know that Heavenly Father has a plan for us. I don't know what it is, but I know there is something. With our hearts still tender and still a bit broken we are trying to pull ourselves together and stand up. We will survive this. Even though right now I'm not sure how. I know we can do this.
We don't know what are plans for the future are right now, but we will make a plan. Right now we are just focusing on us, and healing our hearts one more time.
I just want to tell all of our family and friends, Thank you! Thank you for the prayers, thank you for the Love and Support, thank you for being a shoulder to cry on. I want to tell my Husband Tyler thank you for being the Best Man in the whole world. I don't know what I would do without him!
I will try to keep you posted on our future plans. Please continue to keep us in your prayers, if that's not to much to ask. We appreciate you all so much.

Back on Schedule...for now....

2009-04-16T18:33:00.000-07:00

Hopefully everythings a go. We went in to see Dr. Blauer (the infertility Dr.) last Friday, and so far we are on the schedule for May. I am really ready for this to work this time, and so far I am feeling very confident.

The surgery went really well. They removed between 10 and 12 polyps from my uterus, and then performed a D&C. So hopefully everything is all cleaned up, and now there is room in there for a baby or babies.

Thanks to you all for all the sweet comments and well wishes. We appreciate all the prayers. Hopefully I will have some good news to post soon.

Postponed yet AGAIN!

2009-03-06T20:05:00.000-08:00

So once again we have to wait to do the frozen invitro cycle...

So I went into the Dr. at the beginning of February to get everything all set up to do invitro in March. We went in and he wanted to do a saline sonogram to make sure that the uterus looked good and we could proceed. Well the first time we went in we didn't even get to the part with the saline. He took one look at my uterus and said, wow your lining is way to thick we need to induce a period and get that lining down. So after 10 days of prometrium, finally a period started, and let me just tell ya "Ouchie!!!" it was no no good. So after that awful one, and after a month worth of sickness between Tyler and I, I finally made an appt. to have the saline sonogram again.

So I schedule it and for the one time only, Tyler could not come. He had a meeting that he had to be to, so I went by myself. I thought I will be fine, I can do this, everything is going to be just fine, in and out....well not so much....

We get all set up, and he starts looking around and says, huh well your lining is still really thick, hmmm, well let's proceed with the saline sonogram just to make sure nothing is wrong. So we go forward with that, and "voila!" what do you know, it's not fine. So he starts looking and now there are multiple polyps in my uterus. Well Great! Now I have to have another surgery!!

So here I am just received this crappy news and all by myself. At first I am trying really hard just to brave and strong and just going to not let this bother me, and then all of the sudden it all hits me. Everything is going to have to be put on hold, and another surgery and then I start to cry. Thankfully Dr. Blauer is an awesome sweet man, and was able to comfort me and get me calmed down.

So now I am thinking ok what's next. Well here's what's next...March 10th I am having surgery to remove the polyps and then a D&C to get the lining all nice and clean. Then I will heal for a month or two and then hopefully we will do the frozen invitro cycle in May.

So here is my new mindset. This is good. Maybe this has been the problem. Maybe I had these last time and that's why we didn't get pregnant. Now I will have a nice smooth place for the embryos to grab hold and make a nice little home for them for 9 months. So yep this is a good thing! I am glad they found them and I am glad we are getting it fixed. Anything I can do to get these babies here!! So I will keep everyone posted over the next few months. Hopefully this is the beginning of a very very good thing!!

I am such a Slacker..so here is an update!

2009-02-21T21:02:00.001-08:00

We had a really fun Christmas. We went to New Mexico to spend it with my family and had a really good time. It was a really different Christmas, but it was fun.

Then we came back home and had a New Years Eve Party with Tyler's family and had a blast! We played Rock Band all night, and just had a really great time!!

Then we went to Cancun on the 17th of January and stayed for a week. It was so much fun! The weather wasn't perfect, but the worst day in Cancun, is better than a day at home in the middle of Winter!!!

Now we are preparing for a frozen in-vitro cycle in March. So I will be posting more about that as we go through the different things. So please pray for us. We are really hoping that it works this time.

Now here are some pictures of all the fun things that we have been doing.

I don't know what to do????

2008-11-11T19:18:00.000-08:00

Now that we are delayed again I am just not sure what step to take next. I don't know if I should go back on the Lupron shot or if I should stay off. I just don't know what to do!!
There are so many pro's and con's to both sides. On, Off, On, Off!! GRRRRR what should I do????? I don't really like the shot, but don't really like being off of it because then there is pain, but on it anymore I have a different type of pain my body aches so bad sometimes it feels like I have the Flu. Oh man why can't things just work the way I want it to. I'm sorry I am just being a baby. I know that I should not ask why and just trust that things will work out the way they are supposed to....but sometimes...............I just...

Halloween 2008

2008-11-04T19:20:00.000-08:00

Here are some pictures from Halloween. Tyler does not like Halloween like I do so it's a good thing the people I work with do. We decorate the Pharmacy and this year the theme was Mad Scientists Laboratory! Myself and the other two technicians dressed up as mad scientists and my Boss, Raymond dressed up as the Bride of Frankenstein. We have a bunch of fun! The Provo City Downtown Alliance hosts a safe Trick or Treating night in which all of the businesses on Center street and some of the businesses on University open their doors and hand out Candy to all those who would like to trick or treat. It's only for three hours but there is a bunch of people that come. It's a lot of fun. So here are some pictures from that night!

Me and Tyler at home.

This is Raymond and Denise.

Raymond.

Denise she looked really Crazy!

Delayed Again.....

2008-10-22T19:14:00.000-07:00

Well we are putting off the invitro for another couple of months. I am not sure how I feel about this. I am having mixed emotions. On the one hand I think it might me a good thing to not do it in December during all the holidays and all that fun stuff. I am just not sure if it didn't work again I think I would have a really hard time with it and not want to participate in all of the fun stuff. I had to do that last year and that was no fun! Plus we are going to Cancun in January and I would be really worried if I did get pregnant that I wouldn't do anything while in Cancun. I would want to walk around with a protective bubble around me with a sign that says please stay 15 feet away I need space!!! And for sure Tyler wouldn't let me do anything he would make me stay in the hotel and just look out the window at the ocean. And I definatley don't want to do that.
But on the other hand it is putting it off AGAIN!! We are coming up on the year mark of the last time we did it, and I didn't think that it would take us this long to try again. However my heart is healing and I don't cry everytime I talk about it and that is a really good thing. So I think I am ready to try again. So being ready to try again it is hard to keep putting it off. But I know that when we do try again it will be the right time!
So depending on Dr. Blauers schedule for next year it's looking like February or March. So I hope that we don't push it back again. So for now it will continue to be just the two of us and our little 4 legged babies.

Thanks!

2008-09-29T19:59:00.000-07:00

I just wanted to tell all my friends and family thank you for your support. We would not be able to go through the things that we have gone through without all of you!! I am so thankful for the support that we have on all sides of us. We are so blessed to have such amazing family and friends. You all have played such a huge roll in our lives.

I don't know if you all know this but there are things that each of you do that help Tyler and I to keep marching on in our pursuit of having a family. So Thank You all again. We love you all so much and appreciate all that you guys do for us!!! I can not say Thank You enough. So again Thank you 1 million times. We love you all!!!

So Far So Good

2008-09-24T21:13:00.000-07:00

I thought it was time to post something since it's been a month since my last post. As of right now this Lupron shot seems to be working. Which is really great I have felt better than I have felt in almost a year. We were planning on doing a frozen in-vitro cycle in October, but I chickened out.
I just was not ready yet. I am hoping that I will be ready to try again in December. It will be a full year since the first time we did the in-vitro. I think I will be ready!

I am in my new home, everything is pretty much settled and we are back doing the things that we are supposed to be doing so for once I feel like my life is settling down and not just in constant turmoil. So I hope that this go around I can be more calm and more positive and hopefully that will make all the difference.

So I am thinking calm thoughts and getting myself all Zen.

Ouch that hurt!!

2008-07-31T20:04:00.001-07:00

So I had another Lupron shot yesterday. Let's hope this one works!! I don't enjoy getting these shots because it makes my bum hurt where it goes in. (Autumn you know!) However the nurse at my infertility Dr.'s office is so so good at it that it actually doesn't hurt that bad. But the next day it hurts.
So here's hoping that it works!!

I just have to say this....... Autumn thanks for posting pictures of the babes and talking about how amazing they are. It makes me know for sure that this is all worth it! You have always been Tyler and I inspiration. We know that if you can do it, we can do it too. So thanks!!

Also Tyler's sister just had twins from in-vitro this month and they are so so sweet and seeing them makes it all worth it!!

And one more thing.....
My sister's little girl had her 3rd birthday this month and we went down for her Birthday and seeing that little face and getting to watch her learn and experience things makes me know that we will someday have babies of our own whether it be by in-vitro like Autumn and Heather or by adoption and the stork brings us a wonderful gift like my sister Brigette. I know it will happen and all of the hurt and pain of trying to get them here will all be wiped away and the only thing we will be able to see is our babies!

We want Babies!!!! (stomping my foot)

2008-07-23T20:15:00.000-07:00

Ok so my friend Denise and I were discussing blogs, and I was thinking about what I wanted to talk about and the only thing I want to talk about is babies. So between postings of Tyler's pictures you are going to read me talking about my infertility troubles.

There are a couple of reasons I want to do this:
#1 I need an outlet
#2 and the most important reason when we finally do have babies I would like to have a memoir of what we went through to get them here. I think it would be great thing to have.

So I'm sorry if you don't want to hear about it, you can stop reading. But this is mainly for me and for those people who care about us and love us and want to go through it with us.

This is a picture of our embryos that we had implanted on November 29, 2007. I can't throw this picture away. Call me crazy but I feel like it's a picture of my babies their first picture. I know I know they aren't here I'm not even pregnant but I can't get rid of it. Am I crazy?????

So the day we got the news that we weren't pregnant was probably one of the worst days of my life. I thought for sure we were pregnant. I thought how is it possible that we aren't??? I don't get it. I needed someone to explain to me why, but no one could nobody had an answer. I guess I thought that it was going to be like magic and Dr. Blauer was going to wave his wand and make it happen. I just thought it was our time. But it wasn't and we weren't pregnant and we had to move on. I'm not sure I have moved on completely . My heart broke in two that day. First because we weren't pregnant and second because my sweet sweet husbands heart was broken. I didn't know that men got baby hungry but they do and my sweet sweet husband wants to be a daddy really bad. I never ever want to see that look on his face again. I felt like I let him down. I have never felt more broken ever in my life. I felt like he got a bum wife and I felt really bad that I couldn't bring babies into our lives.

So for now Our hearts are healing and we are moving forward.

Today we saw the Dr. again. You see not only do we have infertility problems I have endometriosis (ouch) and cysts on the ovaries (a bunch of them ouch again) and we are trying to suppress those mean things that grow. The suppression isn't working and I am hurting a lot and getting very very frustrated. So we are going to try the suppression drug one more time and hope that it works this time (cross your fingers). But we did set a goal to try to do in-vitro again in October. Which is what I am really excited about.

You see when we got the embryos on the 29th of November we also had 5 other little embryos that we got to freeze, and we are going to use them. Our next hurdle is to keep me suppressed and hope the pain goes away, and hope and pray that those little baby embryos are still alive. There is a chance that they may not live through the freezing and un-thawing process. But we aren't going to think that they didn't live we are going to think positive.

So the next few months I am going to be posting my progress and talking about the things that are going on in the efforts to have babies. So please bare with me during this journey. There are going to be sad times and happy times and mood swings galore. I am excited and scared but I am ready! I ask that you pray with us and for us, because we are going to need it. Thanks for letting me have an outlet and place to document this amazing journey.

2008-05-13T20:07:00.000-07:00

Ok so I am going to post some of Tyler's pictures because they are so good and I can't stand the fact that we don't do anything with them. He is such an amazing photographer. He takes beautiful pictures. If anybody see's something you want let me know and I will sell you a copy of it!

Power!

2008-05-13T19:54:00.000-07:00

Ok so I don't have alot to say but I do want to share this quote with everyone......

"When you live in reaction, you give your power away. Then you get to experience what you gave your power to."— N. Smith

I read that quote and felt empowered by it! It is so true and it is something I am going to try to do! More power to ya!!!

Ok Go!

2008-05-07T18:25:00.001-07:00

Ok so we are going to try out this blogging thing. I don't know that I am going to be very good at it, but we will give it a go!

I don't usually have a hard time finding things to say, but for today I have a fried brain and don't have much to talk about. I promise in the future there will be some good stuff to read about. I am not a shy person and I love to talk so be ready for some funny stuff. Ta Ta for now!